Hey! I’m Avneet Kaur. A 21 years old girl who is still trying to find that “one” dream. Unlike most people out there, I never had a particular aim in life. I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. Or maybe, I had many dreams. Every career or job attracted me and I wondered what I can be if I pursue that particular career. I was one of those who got fantasized by the success of others.
But my interest used to get faded away after some time. I used to look at someone, get attracted, tried to pursue that dream and ended up getting bored and quitting.
I had done my 11th in medical stream. 12th in Arts. Started pursuing Bsc. in Fashion Designing; Left it to work as a Bhangra Teacher. Opted to pursue an Engineering Diploma, got kicked out of the college; Definitely not a pleasant experience.
Earlier, I too used to feel bad about this. Being a bright student and still not knowing what my passion or talent was, hurts. As any other normal person, I too started criticizing myself. Not sure about what I should do, I kept on trying but ended up quitting again and again.
This led to my depression. I indeed have a list of bad experiences and incidents that I have faced. I even thought of ending my own life. Yes, this quitting, not having a dream and not being able to find myself had a very very bad affect on my mental health.
But one fine day, this thought crossed my mind. Why am I panicking if I’m not able to find a dream? I still have my whole life ahead of me, I can still try and pursue.
It was then, I actually came to know what the issue was…
In our society, we have always been told how exactly to live our life and in fact, there are age limits to every stage of the life we are in.
We ‘Have To’ complete our schooling, go to college, get a job, get married, start a family at a particular age. I had simply crossed that age limit. Which now I think, was not that big deal.
I have always been a quitter. This is NOT something I’m proud of. But I don’t regret it either. Indeed, I quit, I left what I started, never completed a degree. But hey! I have learnt so many things. It isn’t like whatever I did went in vain.
Today, I write blogs, quotes and poems. I draw and paint. I do makeup and hairstyles. I cook and bake. I dress up and pose for the instagram. And I read in my free time. I might have quit. But I’m glad I never ended up my life for not following the society norms. I have explored and experienced every career. I have tasted possibly every flavour of life.
To all those who feel lost and don’t know what they are good at. I know there are many. Listen, it’s totally fine. Don’t treat life as a race. It is ok if something is not perfect and as per your expectations. At the end, your experience matters. Just write down everything you like. If you don’t know, simply start exploring the basic hobbies. Don’t Stop to find your dream. Just keep moving and you shall find yourself.
Lastly, always remember, Not Everyone Who Quits Is A Failure. We simply start something, learn and move on to new adventures to get new experiences. This is what life is. To live it to the fullest.
Also, if you are wondering we need money/salary to live. I do earn by my hobbies and there are ways to turn your hobbies into career.
When you stop making life an issue, you start living life as a dream.
I hope you like what you read.